I tend to get a lot of my ideas for communion meditations from the material that I am learning at school. I study child development and a couple of weeks ago I was introduced to the concept of "cognitive equilibrium". This means mental balance or an understanding of what you are observing. The pursuit of cognitive equilibrium is the driving force that keeps us learning. Cognitive disequilibrium is when you do not understand what you are observing. I was doing some thinking about what puts me into cognitive disequilibrium and I sometimes feel that way when I am thinking about Jesus' sacrifice for humanity on the cross. 

You see we all have these little units of knowledge in our minds that we store information in based on our understandings. We have an understanding of what a dog is, what an apple is, what love is, and a variety of other concepts. When I think of love and fairness I tend to think of the skewed version that we all have because we live in a fallen world. It is hard for me to comprehend why Jesus would die on the cross for my sins because He loves me so deeply. I have to remind myself that it is because He loves us with a perfect type of love, an agape kind of love. Jesus who is the perfect son of God took on the sins of the world and it was our sins that hung Him on that cross. My idea of fairness does not fit in here. It does not seem fair that someone else would pay the price for my mistakes. But that is what Jesus does. He loves us so deeply that sometimes we can not even understand it.

 At the beginning of this meditation, I said that the pursuit of cognitive equilibrium is the driving force that keeps us learning. It is okay if you do not understand every part of the Bible or every characteristic of God and we never fully will, but instead, let that push you to pursue a deeper relationship with the Lord to learn more because that is what Jesus' sacrifice on the cross allows us to do.